Giving the pen to God

If you've never read or heard of the book, "When God Writes Your Love Story," you should definitely read it! I read it once my Freshman year and found it recently at home during Christmas break and decided to bring it back to school and read it through again. I'm hoping to get a different point of view now than I did 3 years ago. Back then, even though I was interested in getting married, I think I was more into the dating world than anything. But I thought for sure that coming to a Christian university, I would find my husband. I now have 3 months left of college and, well, no husband yet. I've been getting a lot more serious about the marriage world since I am about to graduate and a lot of my friends are married so that can be a bit awkward at times. There is really only 1 couple I do not feel like the third wheel around. Honestly I've never had a boyfriend and sometimes that can be embarrassing to say at age 22, but I'm actually hoping it will be to my advantage in the long run. I've been on dates and have been interested in several guys while at school here, but I think I made a lot of mistakes when it came to picking the ones to be interested in.

This is where I am going to be really honest in my blog, so get ready. Every guy that I've liked or gone out with more than once, I assume he will end up being my husband because if a guy seems the least bit interested, he wants to marry you, right? Wrong. I really wish somebody had gotten in my face and told me that 3 1/2 years ago. A question I've asked God about a thousand times is: My parents got married when they were younger than I am now. What's wrong with me? Another honest thing about me: I've had a really hard time letting God be in charge of my love life. I assumed that every guy I met, I thought God had put him in my life for good. Again, maybe God just wanted me to have another friend.

So back to the book. I started reading it again last night and hope to keep it up until I finish it. I'm really hoping to get a different perspective on love and marriage by reading this book a second time around. I realize that since I be leaving Edmond after graduation, I may not find anyone here and I'm okay with that...I think. I'm ready to not be the 3rd, 5th, or 7th wheel and actually go on double dates with my friends. I'm just praying God will lead me to the right man soon, but I want Him to choose my husband because, based on the past, I'm probably not very good at it!